JACQUELINEJACQUELINEJACQUELINE You found me
Jacqueline Attached to my Sillyboy, His full-time Wifey (: I won't give up on us. Even if the skies get rough, I'm giving you all my love, I don't wanna be someone who walks away so easily, I'm here to stay and make the difference that I can make. —Live Like Love Archives April 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 June 2010 July 2010 August 2010 September 2010 October 2010 November 2010 December 2010 January 2011 February 2011 March 2011 April 2011 May 2011 June 2011 July 2011 October 2011 November 2011 December 2011 January 2012 April 2012 May 2012 June 2012 July 2012 October 2012 Songs To be updated	Saturday, January 29, 2011 Being an asst manager ain't easy. Been working full shifts these days, lethargic ttm. Once i reached home, i KO-ed straight. Lay flat on my bed and dozed off soundly. So many things to catch up especially closing. Doing the closing sales, follow up with the DOC, DSB, COGS aren't easy at all. Be firm with the staff whom i known for so long... It's so difficult. But i need to know my stand. Both my legs ach-ed so badly after standing for long hours. I think i'll slim down if i continue to work for 11 hours straight -.- I miss my slacking clan. I miss the days when we're always slacking, crapping away like there's no tml. I miss the days when we slack under the block blabbering nonsense while playing monopoly deal. Indeed, that's a grown up life that everyone will go through. Once you step in the working society, everything changes. You spend less time with your friends ): You spend less time with your kins ): AND BOYFRIEND ): ): ): Sigh... I need time to adapt. Stress-ed up also. I don't wanna disappoint my Outlet manager, my area manager not forgetting my Operation manager. They give me this opportunity. I should cherish it and pick things fast. Stay positive Jacq, you can do it (: Tuesday, January 25, 2011 Learnt alot of stuffs during work today. Ordering of stocks, how to control COGS, cost of labour and etc. Operation manager came today and saw me wearing Black polo uniform. He asked me why am i wearing black polo uniform. Then i told him im the supervisor mah. This is the uniform for supervisor. And then he looked surprised, he replied ' You're NOT a supervisor, you're a management trainee.' Which means... After my probation period i'm a Asst manager. Which means... I'll have to wear what my managers wear. Which means... I need a tie, we're planning to wear PINK tie! Cos including me, we're all girls :D So anw, he had a chat with me. He told me ' Now that you're a manager, the staff are no longer your friends, they are your subordinates. ' This sentence strikes me. It's quite challenging for me though. Cos i've been working there for long and suddenly... I need to give them a image. Let them see the fear factor in me. There's alot i've to catch up and i have to pick up fast. Working opening alone tml, kinda nervous though :( But well... I MUST HAVE CONFIDENCE IN ME! Have faith in myself (: I miss the Sashimi thingy with cucumbers that Boyfriend made for me. IT'S DAMN GOOD -drools- Boyfriend, i want more sushi(s) next time kies? AND YOU CAN BRIBE MY MUM WITH UR SUSHI SKILLS! Bwahaha, win win thing ! Okay, i've got 9 hours and 30 mins more. And and and, i'll be meeting Boyfriend on this weds for movie <3 Happy girl <3 Monday, January 24, 2011 Wondering why am i blogging so frequently now ? Because i'm starting work in 1 more day :/ Went out with Boyfriend after he end his work. Headed to Marina Square to meet him (: He bought a pair of slipper at Fourskin. Train-ed to Town and walked to Far east. Finally Boyfriend found the shoes that he wants. Cost him 60 bucks. Train-ed back to Pasir ris at 8.00pm. DRINKING SESSION AT TOWN PARK<3 Sylvia came shortly followed by Ma dua Er and Zy. A jug of double dose barcardi with sprite and some finger foods. The peeps then left at 9 plus. Left me and Boyfriend. We're enjoying the breeze, chatting away... And he was like ' Baby, are you drunk? You looked so blur. ' LOL, the fact is... I'm not drunk. IM SOBER. Silly boyfriend, i've already said this drinking session is my treat. When i was making the payment, he secretly placed 25 bucks in my bag. I only realised it when i reached home. Meeting him on this coming weds after my work. Yay-ness. Love my silly boyfriend, many many :D Saturday, January 22, 2011 Woke up at 9.30 today. Accompanied Sylvia for her interview at Mountbatten. We witnessed a shooting scene there. Initially we thought there's a riot. LOL. Anw, she's got that job and she'll be starting on next coming weds. As for me, my job will starts on next coming tues ): There goes my life... Suck it up. Head-ed to The Central after her interview. Nicholas tagged along. Speaking of him, I WAS SO IRRITATED BY HIM !!! Urgh, overgrown freak... He is seriously tall. He stands at 1.85? Or probably taller than that. But anyway, Zy and Shu Ren came to meet us at Outram park. Zy wanna get a 'wooden goat' He said that the fortune teller asked him to get one to prevent some bad unforeseen luck. We searched high and low for that particular WOODEN GOAT. Finally we found one at Chinatown point. Its eff-ing small and it cost 25 bucks. Wow? After that goat thingy... we walked around Chinatown. ITS EFFING PACKED LAH. Squeeze here and there... Typical singaporeans -.- Sweat like nobody's business. Went to Vivocity, bought a bag for 38 bucks :D Oh well, had a long day.... Tired already ): Thursday, January 20, 2011 Enjoyed my day with Boyfriend (: Had a long day with him today... Else next week will be a packed week ahead. Cos next week i'll be starting my work as a Floor supervisor. Anyway, Shopping with Boyfriend at Bugis. QQ mian for dinner, it's superb :D Shop-ed with boyfriend at bugis street. He certainly knows how to shop man. Boyfriend bought 3 jeans, 5 tops. He spent like 300 over bucks? AI ZAI MAN. My legs are so eff-ing tired already -.- Gonna break like twigs. Head-ed home at around 9.30pm. Boyfriend sent me home <3 Aww... Might be meeting him on this coming Sunday :D I'll miss you so badly, my silly boyfriend :x Tuesday, January 18, 2011 Folding hearts made me feel emo nemo. Idk. Bad memories :/ Maybe I should stop folding it. Flashbacks of memories... Kept thinking and feel so nostalgic. Maybe because i found out something that i'm not supposed to know in the past? Seriously, i'd rather not to know anything. In failed relationships i'm always like an idiot. I'm always the last to know the truth after that particular breakup. That 'sorry' you said to me, because of your guilt ? Now then I know the exact reason of why are you feeling apologetic. Now i know... I don't know what should i say anymore. I always thought that you're once a good boyfriend that i'm willing to reminisce those great memories we shared. But now, no. To think that i cling-ed on the pain for 10 months, making myself so miserable. Thanks... For making me looks like an idiot and feel like an idiot. Bu zhi de. Monday, January 17, 2011 I miss my boyfriend, my silly boy. Eff-ing loads. Saturday, January 15, 2011 Sometimes in life, things tends to be so contradicting. You will be so indecisive. You don't know what to do, you take in people's advices. But sometimes, those advices weren't the one you want. You took those advices to reconfirm if it's same as your thinking. Finally i realised how practical, how realistic Singapore is. Not forgetting, how humans can be so practical/skeptical too. My current job is offering me a Asst.Manager position. Whereas another job in Changi Airport is offering me a Full time job for 3 mths of probation period before promoting me to a Floor Supervisor. My decision is towards to my current job. Why? Because... Firstly, i've worked there for long and i know how it goes. And... It's a sense of achievement, an acknowledgement. All i need to learn is the manager role, the paperworks, the orderings. And of course, i will not stay there for long... Prolly, give me half a year to pick up the skills. And then i will move on to the other jobs. However, my parents wants me to work in Changi Airport. In their perspective, i will have more prospect there compared to my current. But i would like to stay put on my current first... It's the matter of time. I just can't do things in my way for ONCE. Honestly... I'm feeling so frustrated. In other words, Only child sucks big time. I can endure anything, I don't care how people look at me. I just wanna follow my intuition, yeah... It sounded dumb. But i trust my own intuition. Im eff-ing 20, old enough to think... Old enough to pursue what i want. You guys stopped me from going to an Art school, I didn't say anything. Instead, I accomodated to what you guys expect WHAT THE ONLY DAUGHTER SHOULD STUDY. My dreams, trashed. I didn't prompt much... But now, can i at least do what i want? Please? What so bad about working in a Service line? I studied retail management. Obviously i'm working in a Service industry. Why are you guys pushing me towards Office jobs? In the first place, why will i even go for that UOB bank interview knowing that i will not be selected and knowing that that's not the job i want. Because, i know that you guys always want me to work in a office job. And bank, its promising. At the end of the day... for my second interview, that interviewer told me that I DON'T HOLD A 'O' LVL CERT OR A OFFICE CERT. And guess what? Thats the minimum requirement. She added on ' And, you holds a Retail dip, it's not relevant to office jobs. ' I practically ruined my own ego, my pride. You guys have no idea how sarcastic that interviewer was. And today, my mom told me that i screw-ed that UOB job. I was so disappointed... No. In fact, i was devastated. I blamed myself for not studying hard enough. I blamed myself for pinning up false hopes. Just let me do what i want, stop your plans for me. I don't need that. It's enough. Friday, January 14, 2011 I just feel so uneasy whenever i sees her photos in your fb. Can i be selfish and ask you to delete them for my sake? Can i do that? Forget it, anyway... Went for a haircut with Sylvia today. And head-ed home at ard 5pm. Both of us were feeling so lethargic. Cos we turn-ed in late last night. She slept at 2am whereas for me... I slept at 3 plus. I just can't get myself to sleep. Things are running through my mind, flashbacks. And i realised that i still couldn't bring myself to voice out any unhappiness. It became a habit, bad one. Hate myself this way. So not me. And boy... Please stop telling me that you don't deserve me. I dreaded that sentence ttm. I don't care for who you are, cos i love you for you. I've moved on after that 10 months of pain i've suffered. iloveyou. And i clearly know how i feel towards you Hold my hand till the very end will you ?(: Sylvia, Please stay strong. You've been through that, tell yourself... This obstacle is nothing to you. I'm here for you, if you needs me too. Even though i can't give you good advices but i can be a good listening ear. Remember, slacking clan is always there for you. That friendship ties, that bond is strong enough to keep you moving. STAY STRONG BABE! Thursday, January 13, 2011 Bought 2 baby turtles today Cost me 10 bucks. A tank - 14bucks. And their food. Hehe... Cny new turtles, HUAT AH! Tuesday, January 11, 2011 Happy day :D Saturday, January 8, 2011 我以為我的溫柔 能給妳整個宇宙 ~ 我以為我夠堅強 卻一天天的失望 少給我一點希望 希望就不是奢望 I'm so into this song... Because pple always make assumptions and jump into conclusions. If you had given less hope, then hope wouldn't be so excessive. Am i right to say that? (: Humans often think or hope that miracle would happen. You thought that you're able to fill the emptiness in your relationship. Focusing on being by 'his'side. He made you cry, But you still forgive him with a smile. You thought you're strong enough to handle everything by yourself. But you lost so much with despair. You said you would understand my disappointment. But that couldn't be relieved with just tolerance. Cos again, i thought i showed up at a perfect time. My assumption is just that i assumed. That paragraph, its for you. Monday, January 3, 2011 10.36pm. A stay home Monday (: Actually i just realised something... When I was young, i'm indulged with the musical box's melodies. It's so soothing and melodious, like a lullaby (: The first musical box i had was from my 2nd Uncle, and it's from melbourne. It's white in colour, with a fairy. Back then... I was so in love with the melody. I played it almost every night before I sleep :D Oh well... Naive (: Saturday, January 1, 2011 HAPPY 2011 AND A HAPPPPPY NEW YEAR~ Wooo~Had a blast with the peeps just now :D Headed over to Xiao Qiu's place after my work. Jasmine's already at her house :x My bad uh, didn't tag along for grocery. Anw, WE HAD FRIED STUFFS! Like, Japanese crispy chicken, nuggets, samosa, fries and lastly, seaweed chicken. Damn full ttm lah. Like all fried foods... TIME FOR A DIET PLAN~ Waited for Jy, Zy and Alex to come. Went down Xiao qiu's block and enjoyed pretty much :D Spray here and there, playing fireworks. HUAT AH~ Oh well... Time passed so quickly. 2010 was indeed a bad year for me. BUT, 2011 WILL BE MUCH MUCH MUCH MUUUUUUUCH~ BETTER! :D Lastly, may our friendship last till the end. ILOVEYOU PEEPS <3 Okay, am skype-ing with Xiao qiu now. Toodles~
I'm not easy to please So, you don't come and go