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You found me

Jacqueline

Attached to my Sillyboy,
His full-time Wifey (:

I won't give up on us. Even if the skies get rough, I'm giving you all my love, I don't wanna be someone who walks away so easily, I'm here to stay and make the difference that I can make.
—Live Like Love

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Monday, August 31, 2009

Last day of august

Time flies .
Today , is th last day of august .
A few more months to my 19th birthday (:
Absurd , im getting old ):
What if im going to be single , no one wants a old hag .
And im gonna stay unmarried for life ?!
Okay , im geting ridiculous , way too far fetched :x
Winson is going over to korea for 10 years , media contract ):
Look , everyone around me seems to have a brighter future compared to mine .
Mine is rather a pathetic one ...
It's already th last day of august yet i achieved nothing .
I'm useless aren't i ?

我爱你,你爱我是不是还不够?
我爱你,你爱我算不算是承诺?
（I love you）

Friday, August 28, 2009

Blogging time (:
Just a random post today .
Imagine , there's a bride & a groom .
In th midst of th wedding ceremony , a guy who th bride love grabbed her away from him .
And they ran out th church .
People , obviously ... they gave them their blessings .
But who cared bout how th groom felt ?
Totally cast out from th picture .
Would you rather marry someone whom u love alot , but he don't feel th same way .
Or , marry someone who love you alot , but you don't feel th same way ?
I'm kinda pessimistic towards relationship .
I want to , get rid of this selfishness .
I've always been thinking that , dramas will always remain as dramas .
Fairytale romances , will always remain as fairytales .
Realistic perspectives ... For example , that groom .
No one ever consider how he feel ...
Nothing is perfect , nothing is a happy ending .
Someone will always ended up getting hurt .
Get it ?

Sunday, August 23, 2009

Oh well , i somehow created a new blog .
Perhaps , re link me peepos [:
http://picturesque-lane.onsugar.com

Saturday, August 22, 2009

Ah , i just reached home .
Had Ichiban Sushi for dinner .
Uncle John and Aunt Debby bought me gifts !
Cos they went over to korea - Envies -
A hot pink cap , and a pink hello kitty pen .
Kinda adorable thou [:
Mum , ENVY ME PLEASE ! I got what she wanted :x
Life been good towards me .
Just recently , im having sweet tooth!
I've no idea why... Good thing ? :x
Cant keep my hands , my hands, outta cookie jar ~

Baby baby boy , i miss u so :3

Friday, August 21, 2009

Okay, im surprised that im still awake .
Actually i slept at 12.19am after chatting with my pork ( my boy :x )
Then , i woke up at 2.30am .
Weird sensation , probably because of my menses :x
I felt so warm & i tossed around ...
I had weird dreams , seriously , i don't know what am i dreaming bout .
And finally i told myself " Thats it , i can't sleep ."
So , i watched online movies , " Love matters "
Hmm , this movie ain't half bad thou .
Douglas told me that he is going back to UK soon .
I felt so down .
I can't bear him to leave ...
Looks like im gonna lost a friend soon .
Positively , internet exists - MSN (:
Hey scumbag , you gotta contact me once you reach UK , looking upon for your next visit yeah .
Ah , Gawd ... i guess i needa get used of my sleeping timing soon :/
This can't go on forever .
I mean , i'll get real shag = =

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

Argh , this internet its pissing me off .
Now , my desktop is down = =
AW MAN ...
It's driving me crazy .
EVEN TH CUSTOMERS !
Seriously , these are madness .
Some douche customers do drive me crazy .
Slums ! malicious creatures ! BRATS ! Damnit -.-
Sigh , why can't things remain perfect ...
Even Cinderella leads a better life compared to mine .

I want my boy ]:

Can't sleep .
I misses th days back in secondary school life .
I have no idea how to describe th feeling .
Its like , missing th days of old , i just wanna be 16 again .
Cherish th days with teachers ,
Days with classmates ,
Days with my close friends ,
Days with laughters , joys and sorrows .
So, looks like everyone of us is growing up .
More sensible , more stable .
Thinking back of how naive we are , probably childish . haha .
It's not a bad thing .
Ah , i feel so old now .

Boy, will you still want me ? :x

Sunday, August 16, 2009

I fall for this guy , unknowingly .
He is very understanding , considerate .
Thou he is younger than me , to be exact , 5 months younger.
When im feeling down , he cheer-ed me up .
When i need him , he is always there .
When i put him aeroplane , he never complained .
When i work morning shifts , he give me morning calls .
Now, i'm feeling selfish , cos i don't wanna let him go .
Xie xie ni hai zai ai wo .
Zai ye mei you ren bi ni zai liao jie wo .
Wo hui hen ai hen ai ni .
Wo de xin bu hui bian .
Zhi Wei <3

Saturday, August 15, 2009

Just reached home .
Drank a lil liquor with Ck and Nick .
I'm not yet drunk , not yet high .
Met them after my work .
I felt so lousy .
Can i really really really be who i wanna be ?
Can i really do what i like ?
I can't ...
Been stressing on loads of stuffs , but yet im trying get it outta my head .
Can i really blog about how i felt ?
Im no longer like myself ...
I wanna be how i used to be when im 16 .
Naive .
Carefree .
Positive aspects .
Cheerful .
Enjoy life to th fullest .
Im just myself ...
Now ,
Timid .
Afraid of getting hurt .
Negative .
Stress .
Tired of life .
Sometimes i even wonder , living is tough but dying is peaceful .
I know that it may sound ridiculous to solve things that way .
I know .
Do you know how terrible it felt when your parents keep blaming you for not finding a proper job ?
Hey , im trying my best to ...
I can't pursue my dreams .
Forget it , im being to emotional .

Friday, August 14, 2009

I don't know why ...
But im feeling so friggin' emo to th max .
I feel like screaming .
I feel like digging out my heart .
I hate this pumping feeling .
Like as if , im afraid of losing something , something important , or maybe someone ...
If i had a choice , i'd rather not to love , not to like .
I dont like those "think alot" feeling , it suck .
Yes , i fear . I still fear ...

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

Okay , maybe i read too many of vampire novels .
I had a weird dream last night .
Well , im a vampire in th dream .
So there's this particular brunette , she wants to be a vampire so she asked for my help .
I agreed .
So in order to go to th vampire's realm , there's this secret passage ( one of th walls )
To find th wall , we have this code " cookie "
While finding , this brunette starts to evolve like a vampire .
I got to stop her from evolving , so i gave her some pills i guess :/
And yeah , she's back to normal .
Finally , we found th word " cookie " writtened on one of th walls .
I pressed something against th "cookie" and red light shone upon us .
We somehow got teleport-ed to th vampire're realm .
As far as im concerned , th brunette then wore a really marvelous gown but with a red tee shirt on .
Totally spoilt th image .
And one of th vampire is laughing at her .
After that , i woke up .
With my neck aching like hell .
Probably imma vampire in my previous life ? :x
Okay , this is getting ridiculous .
LOL.

Thursday, August 6, 2009

Crap .
Went to school today .
I was late ...
I didn't know that i'm having a school day today :o
My teacher called me at 9.00 and demanded " I expect to see you in school by 10.30 SHARP."
I got up , called Ck and Nick .
We somehow rushed to school .
Warning letters given :x
Doesn't really matter lah -.-
In class , played with guitar , slacked , dozed off .
Sigh , i failed finance !
I hate maths :/
BUT I HATE MYSELF MORE .
Cos i hate maths . BUAHAHA .
I think im heading to school tml too .
Sigh , stupid school -.-

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

BOO HOOO ~!
I LOVE BEAR !
Kay lah , i know i suck at this photo .
That shows my passion towards plushies - BEARS .
Anyhow , who's up on national day ?
I'll be working like a dog -.-
Hmm , for like till 3pm only .
Lucky me :D
Sian lor , i needa go school on friday .
I hate school ;(
It's always like assignments here and there , never ending one .
If only i can get married ASAP luh .
Get married BY th age of 21 ? Or probably , 23 ?
Good life liao .
Stay at home shake leg .
Get myself a maid , and be best friend with her :D
Ain't half bad idea hor ?
Okay, back to reality .
I got to face it ...
JASMINE ! WE'RE SO GONNA GO SNOWCITY !
Ps / : sounds like " I'm so gonna go swensens ! "
Ah , craps :x

Kinda lazy to update blog these days .
Well , went out with Ck yesterday .
Caught th movie , Harry Potter .
Th movie so-so only .
We laughed throughout th whole movie :x
Hmm , someone asked me ...
Okay , well ... It's my mum .
She asked what's my theory towards a "perfect" marriage .
Perfect marriage .

-Charming husband
-MUST be taller than me
-Understands me
-Love me && my parents && our family
-Able to support me ( i don't care if you're rich )
-Not calculative ( Damn gay )
-Gentleman

Ayee , as long as we're loving lah .
I don't really bother that much whether is he rich or not .
Just don't be like those lazy ediots who don't wanna look for a job can luh .
Sometimes girls can be materialistic .
Technically speaking , majority i guess ?
I'm more to th fantasies thingy .
Like love love , romantic romantic , sweet sweet that kind .
Not particularly like " Eh , you no money sia , stay away from me "
That one is way toooooo realistic -.-
Okay lah , maybe this kinda girls are those chio chio ones , got damn good qualities .
Maybe that MIGHT make a difference ?
Ya , i'm in th " nobody want " category = =
That's why i fantasize on FAIRYTALE lovey dovey moments -.-

Saturday, August 1, 2009

Felt so emo .
Nostalgic .
New month , fresh start (:
Zhongyi , u Ediot .
MEET UP SOON .

I'm not easy to please

So, you don't come and go

JACQUELINEJACQUELINEJACQUELINE You found me
Jacqueline Attached to my Sillyboy, His full-time Wifey (: I won't give up on us. Even if the skies get rough, I'm giving you all my love, I don't wanna be someone who walks away so easily, I'm here to stay and make the difference that I can make. —Live Like Love Archives April 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 June 2010 July 2010 August 2010 September 2010 October 2010 November 2010 December 2010 January 2011 February 2011 March 2011 April 2011 May 2011 June 2011 July 2011 October 2011 November 2011 December 2011 January 2012 April 2012 May 2012 June 2012 July 2012 October 2012 Songs To be updated	Monday, August 31, 2009 Last day of august Time flies . Today , is th last day of august . A few more months to my 19th birthday (: Absurd , im getting old ): What if im going to be single , no one wants a old hag . And im gonna stay unmarried for life ?! Okay , im geting ridiculous , way too far fetched :x Winson is going over to korea for 10 years , media contract ): Look , everyone around me seems to have a brighter future compared to mine . Mine is rather a pathetic one ... It's already th last day of august yet i achieved nothing . I'm useless aren't i ? 我爱你,你爱我是不是还不够? 我爱你,你爱我算不算是承诺? （I love you） Friday, August 28, 2009 Blogging time (: Just a random post today . Imagine , there's a bride & a groom . In th midst of th wedding ceremony , a guy who th bride love grabbed her away from him . And they ran out th church . People , obviously ... they gave them their blessings . But who cared bout how th groom felt ? Totally cast out from th picture . Would you rather marry someone whom u love alot , but he don't feel th same way . Or , marry someone who love you alot , but you don't feel th same way ? I'm kinda pessimistic towards relationship . I want to , get rid of this selfishness . I've always been thinking that , dramas will always remain as dramas . Fairytale romances , will always remain as fairytales . Realistic perspectives ... For example , that groom . No one ever consider how he feel ... Nothing is perfect , nothing is a happy ending . Someone will always ended up getting hurt . Get it ? Sunday, August 23, 2009 Oh well , i somehow created a new blog . Perhaps , re link me peepos [: http://picturesque-lane.onsugar.com Saturday, August 22, 2009 Ah , i just reached home . Had Ichiban Sushi for dinner . Uncle John and Aunt Debby bought me gifts ! Cos they went over to korea - Envies - A hot pink cap , and a pink hello kitty pen . Kinda adorable thou [: Mum , ENVY ME PLEASE ! I got what she wanted :x Life been good towards me . Just recently , im having sweet tooth! I've no idea why... Good thing ? :x Cant keep my hands , my hands, outta cookie jar ~ Baby baby boy , i miss u so :3 Friday, August 21, 2009 Okay, im surprised that im still awake . Actually i slept at 12.19am after chatting with my pork ( my boy :x ) Then , i woke up at 2.30am . Weird sensation , probably because of my menses :x I felt so warm & i tossed around ... I had weird dreams , seriously , i don't know what am i dreaming bout . And finally i told myself " Thats it , i can't sleep ." So , i watched online movies , " Love matters " Hmm , this movie ain't half bad thou . Douglas told me that he is going back to UK soon . I felt so down . I can't bear him to leave ... Looks like im gonna lost a friend soon . Positively , internet exists - MSN (: Hey scumbag , you gotta contact me once you reach UK , looking upon for your next visit yeah . Ah , Gawd ... i guess i needa get used of my sleeping timing soon :/ This can't go on forever . I mean , i'll get real shag = = Wednesday, August 19, 2009 Argh , this internet its pissing me off . Now , my desktop is down = = AW MAN ... It's driving me crazy . EVEN TH CUSTOMERS ! Seriously , these are madness . Some douche customers do drive me crazy . Slums ! malicious creatures ! BRATS ! Damnit -.- Sigh , why can't things remain perfect ... Even Cinderella leads a better life compared to mine . I want my boy ]: Can't sleep . I misses th days back in secondary school life . I have no idea how to describe th feeling . Its like , missing th days of old , i just wanna be 16 again . Cherish th days with teachers , Days with classmates , Days with my close friends , Days with laughters , joys and sorrows . So, looks like everyone of us is growing up . More sensible , more stable . Thinking back of how naive we are , probably childish . haha . It's not a bad thing . Ah , i feel so old now . Boy, will you still want me ? :x Sunday, August 16, 2009 I fall for this guy , unknowingly . He is very understanding , considerate . Thou he is younger than me , to be exact , 5 months younger. When im feeling down , he cheer-ed me up . When i need him , he is always there . When i put him aeroplane , he never complained . When i work morning shifts , he give me morning calls . Now, i'm feeling selfish , cos i don't wanna let him go . Xie xie ni hai zai ai wo . Zai ye mei you ren bi ni zai liao jie wo . Wo hui hen ai hen ai ni . Wo de xin bu hui bian . Zhi Wei <3 Saturday, August 15, 2009 Just reached home . Drank a lil liquor with Ck and Nick . I'm not yet drunk , not yet high . Met them after my work . I felt so lousy . Can i really really really be who i wanna be ? Can i really do what i like ? I can't ... Been stressing on loads of stuffs , but yet im trying get it outta my head . Can i really blog about how i felt ? Im no longer like myself ... I wanna be how i used to be when im 16 . Naive . Carefree . Positive aspects . Cheerful . Enjoy life to th fullest . Im just myself ... Now , Timid . Afraid of getting hurt . Negative . Stress . Tired of life . Sometimes i even wonder , living is tough but dying is peaceful . I know that it may sound ridiculous to solve things that way . I know . Do you know how terrible it felt when your parents keep blaming you for not finding a proper job ? Hey , im trying my best to ... I can't pursue my dreams . Forget it , im being to emotional . Friday, August 14, 2009 I don't know why ... But im feeling so friggin' emo to th max . I feel like screaming . I feel like digging out my heart . I hate this pumping feeling . Like as if , im afraid of losing something , something important , or maybe someone ... If i had a choice , i'd rather not to love , not to like . I dont like those "think alot" feeling , it suck . Yes , i fear . I still fear ... Wednesday, August 12, 2009 Okay , maybe i read too many of vampire novels . I had a weird dream last night . Well , im a vampire in th dream . So there's this particular brunette , she wants to be a vampire so she asked for my help . I agreed . So in order to go to th vampire's realm , there's this secret passage ( one of th walls ) To find th wall , we have this code " cookie " While finding , this brunette starts to evolve like a vampire . I got to stop her from evolving , so i gave her some pills i guess :/ And yeah , she's back to normal . Finally , we found th word " cookie " writtened on one of th walls . I pressed something against th "cookie" and red light shone upon us . We somehow got teleport-ed to th vampire're realm . As far as im concerned , th brunette then wore a really marvelous gown but with a red tee shirt on . Totally spoilt th image . And one of th vampire is laughing at her . After that , i woke up . With my neck aching like hell . Probably imma vampire in my previous life ? :x Okay , this is getting ridiculous . LOL. Thursday, August 6, 2009 Crap . Went to school today . I was late ... I didn't know that i'm having a school day today :o My teacher called me at 9.00 and demanded " I expect to see you in school by 10.30 SHARP." I got up , called Ck and Nick . We somehow rushed to school . Warning letters given :x Doesn't really matter lah -.- In class , played with guitar , slacked , dozed off . Sigh , i failed finance ! I hate maths :/ BUT I HATE MYSELF MORE . Cos i hate maths . BUAHAHA . I think im heading to school tml too . Sigh , stupid school -.- Wednesday, August 5, 2009 BOO HOOO ~! I LOVE BEAR ! Kay lah , i know i suck at this photo . That shows my passion towards plushies - BEARS . Anyhow , who's up on national day ? I'll be working like a dog -.- Hmm , for like till 3pm only . Lucky me :D Sian lor , i needa go school on friday . I hate school ;( It's always like assignments here and there , never ending one . If only i can get married ASAP luh . Get married BY th age of 21 ? Or probably , 23 ? Good life liao . Stay at home shake leg . Get myself a maid , and be best friend with her :D Ain't half bad idea hor ? Okay, back to reality . I got to face it ... JASMINE ! WE'RE SO GONNA GO SNOWCITY ! Ps / : sounds like " I'm so gonna go swensens ! " Ah , craps :x Kinda lazy to update blog these days . Well , went out with Ck yesterday . Caught th movie , Harry Potter . Th movie so-so only . We laughed throughout th whole movie :x Hmm , someone asked me ... Okay , well ... It's my mum . She asked what's my theory towards a "perfect" marriage . Perfect marriage . -Charming husband -MUST be taller than me -Understands me -Love me && my parents && our family -Able to support me ( i don't care if you're rich ) -Not calculative ( Damn gay ) -Gentleman Ayee , as long as we're loving lah . I don't really bother that much whether is he rich or not . Just don't be like those lazy ediots who don't wanna look for a job can luh . Sometimes girls can be materialistic . Technically speaking , majority i guess ? I'm more to th fantasies thingy . Like love love , romantic romantic , sweet sweet that kind . Not particularly like " Eh , you no money sia , stay away from me " That one is way toooooo realistic -.- Okay lah , maybe this kinda girls are those chio chio ones , got damn good qualities . Maybe that MIGHT make a difference ? Ya , i'm in th " nobody want " category = = That's why i fantasize on FAIRYTALE lovey dovey moments -.- Saturday, August 1, 2009 Felt so emo . Nostalgic . New month , fresh start (: Zhongyi , u Ediot . MEET UP SOON .
I'm not easy to please So, you don't come and go