Lost and insecure, you found me

JACQUELINEJACQUELINEJACQUELINE

You found me

Jacqueline

Attached to my Sillyboy,
His full-time Wifey (:

I won't give up on us. Even if the skies get rough, I'm giving you all my love, I don't wanna be someone who walks away so easily, I'm here to stay and make the difference that I can make.
—Live Like Love

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Thursday, April 30, 2009

Had a long day today .
10am - 4pm , i was working .
Slacking , doing nothing .
After work , head-ed off to th washroom and changed .
Waited for Ck , like an hour plus .
He accompanied me to chat all th while .
Till he reach-ed .
We then went to catch th 5.35pm show , Friday th 13th .
Lawls~
Erm , normal movie , not as gore as My bloody valentine .
It jus that , th sound effect is , too sudden .
LOL .
And yes , thats for all thrillers .
After th movie , waited for Jasmine .
Th 3 of us then went BBQ CHICKEN for dinner .
Dam full , tormenting .
Walked home aft that .
AND FOR TML ~!
10am-4pm .
Will be meeting Jasmine after that .
We will be going over to Clemen's Bbq .
Well , another long day ahead .
Looking forward [:

Im still awake .
Reading thru th past friendster comments you wrote for me .
Every words , seems to be from th bottom of your heart .
You said you didnt regret waiting for me .
You said that everything lasted forever .
You said that your love is still th same .
You said that life sucks without me .
And , you said that you love me , alot .

Nothing is true .
You made me have a fear towards liking another guy .
You made me hate to fall in love .
You made me thinks that guys sweet talkings are bullshyts .
You made me thinks that guys feeling fade faster than girl .
You made me thinks that guys treat girls for granted .
You left a scar , in my heart .

Cos , i dont know how long will it takes , for my scar to recover .
Thanks , for such a gift .
Let me tell you something in return .
I loved you , for who you used to be .
I hate you , for what you take me as .

Monday, April 27, 2009

Jian told me that you're already attached .
Surprised .
Don't wish to comment much also .
Do not have th right to .
My bad , to let you go .
May you be happy with th girl you love .
Me , lost faith in relationship .
Moreover , falling in love ?
Guys way of loving , its all bullshyts .
Whatever .
Quarrelled with my parents .
Not trivial stuffs .
Some confidential matter .
Stuffs that agitate me , alot .
I want my parents , to care more .
Not feigning ignorance .
Wanting me to be independent .
I have an urge to just , JUST jump off th effing building .
Maybe , i'm better off dead .
I hate myself , more than i hate them .
I hate myself , for being useless , for being indecisive , for being timid .

Sunday, April 26, 2009

Basically , there's nothing much to blog about .
Single ladies (:
What kinda life will you expect from a single lady ?
-laughs-
Well , another fact .
I'm welling to stay single , till i meet my Mr Right :D
Be it 1 year , 2 years or maybe 3 years .
I don't mind .
As long as , he's my one .
Well , gotta go to bed now .
Working tml . Nights out ~
Oyasumi Nasai (:

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

Thats th Pooh , always been with me . When im feeling sad .
Felt lonely today .
I don't know , just lonely .
Thinking back in Primary && Secondary days .
I'm always keeping a diary .
Updating on everyday events .
Even , my crush .
Secretly liking him , not wanting him to know .
Peep at him during assembly .
Hope to get a chance to see him during recess and etc .
So naive yet silly .
Now , grown up .
I can't get over him , yet .
捨不得,我為什麼說再見
能不能收回我說的每一句話
我為什麼不忘記
你的溫柔總是來了又去
我的孤單
你的電話　
忍住不打
我不想變成習慣等你回來

Monday, April 20, 2009

Okay .
Today , went back to school with Ck .
DAMN ~! He is late , pretty late ?
supposed to meet up at 3.30 . He reached at almost 4 .
Lawls~
Headed to school and took our business computing's book .
Anyway , we went to hongkong cafe . And had our lunch .
While waiting , we were chatting .
Heard rumors , from Ck bout my cousin .
Well , Unpleasant ones .
I wouldn't want that RUMOR to be true .
Prolly, if it is , i'll respect him no more .
If its not , That girl is so gonna die .
I make sure peepos screw her up -.-
Truth can be brutal .
Seriously , i hate cheena bitches . They suck . Most of th time .
Train-ed back to pasir ris .
Walked home with him .
Insan-ed .
Talking craps , laughing like an ediot .
Well , tml is another working day ahead .
Screw-ed up work .

Saturday, April 18, 2009

Today~!
Went out with Jasmine after her work .
Waited for her , like 40mins ~!
Geez , was kinda pissed off luh .
Because of th humid weather .
Met her at ard 3 plus , and headed to Cityhall .
Train-ed to Tampines .
And bought a $35.90 top .
Didnt buy much also .
Jasmine in th other hand , bought slippers and a red wallet .
We then headed over to White sands .
Took neoprints . But , FCUKED UP LOR .
Th machine got some technical problems , then we can't refund .
Was kinda like, wtf .
A bit no mood to take another shots .
In th end , went to ehub , and had DINNERR ~!
Damn full , almost vomitted ]:
Okay , so eeew right ?
Anyhow , walk-ed home .
Chit chatted at th playground , GRUMBLED AGAIN ~!
Cos , them again =/
Well well , I WANNA GET OVER HIM SOOOON .
Please god ]:

Friday, April 17, 2009

Morning people !
It's brunch time ~
Right , my morning SICKNESS :x
Man , i sounded like a pregnant woman :x
Ok , this sounded so wrong !
Sigh , read thru some blogs .
Girls , are so fortunate , when they just begin with their sweeeet sweeet loveeee .
Nothing goes wrong , everything seems so right .
Radiant smile , everyday .
That is what i used to have , i used to be .
Time flies ~
Growing up ... getting older ...
Lost faith in relationship , lost self esteem , lack of enthusiasm .
Life .
Anw , gotta work later .
Workaholic .

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

Okay people .
I'm so sick .
Heavy flu , Coughing and slight fever .
And then Benji was like : Gt drink 8 cups of water not ?
LAWLS ~!
So anyway , Went out with Adelyn today .
She accompanied me to my school , to book my exams .
And then , we headed to Plaza Sing .
Laugh-ed all th way .
Didn't camwhore that much also .
So , aft ps , we went Cathay .
Well , gathers of memories =/
And town-ed aft that .
People , i'm feeling so sick now .
Off ~

Monday, April 13, 2009

He sent me two friendster messages .
My heart sinked , when he says that he miss me .
Is it true ? Or is it just a prank ?
I don't know .
I cried , terribly .
Another message was , he asked if i've change my hp number .
Boy , It hurts alot to see that message .
Cos , i miss you so ...
Thank you , for remembering me ;
And thank you , for missing me .
Take care .

Sunday, April 12, 2009

After much considerations , i decided to blog .
Okay , that was lame -.-
Today , it kinda suck ?
Anyway , was out with mum .
Cos daddy is out with his clients .
So , my mum and i , were doing some grocery shopping at hougang mall .
After that , we went to th shop&save .
My mum was choosing some frozen chickens for dinner .
There are like, 2 pathways .
And there's this particular fat indian girl with her friends .
They were WAITING or probably , delibrately WAITING for my mum to finish choosing .
Cos , they wanna cross .
To me , they have PEA SIZED BRAINS !
Okay , then this fat girl was like saying " WAH LAO ! She choosing GOLDS sia etc "
And then , she laughed , with her friend , with a ultraaa fugly tattoo .
She is referring to my mum .
Of course, i wasn't PLEASED to hear that .
I was staring at her , and her friends .
Once more , she repeated .
And that is where i get pissed .
i hissed " What's your fcuking problem here ? "
She replied " Im nt referring to your mum what "
I say " Oh , so , there's only me , my mum and ur friends . Are you implying tht u're referring to your friend of smth ? "
There she goes , disgracing our CHEENA vulgarities .
She shouted " Ccb , you got a problem here ? "
I replied " Like duh ? are u asking me a stupid qns ? And pls , YOU ARE A INDIAN , dont disgrace chinese's vulgarities , cos it dont sounded nice for you to say . "
Cos th way she is saying , its like " CHOW CHEE BUH "
Those indian's slang .
She went on howling like a mad woman . My mum asked me to ignore her .
Then she went on saying " You scared ah ? "
I replied " There is no way to be afraid of , cos , you're just an typical black indian , with 3 lumps of fats , mind your way, cos you may crash on someone with ur size . "
I added : Fcuk off , retarded fat woman .
Her friends , and BOYFRIENDS dont even dare to reply anything .
She is a one of a kind fat arse lah .
Well , if i'm gonna see her in PASIR RIS .
I PROMISE ! That im so gonna rip off her fat arse .
She insulted my mum , somehow .
FAT INDIAN GIRL .
She probably thinks that she got ang kong friend , people scared .
Stupid thinking .
Im so gonna squeeze out her fats , if i were to see her again .
Maybe , she will thank me for tht , cos , she's going slim .
What a biatch ~

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

Those are pictures taken yesterday , shots by Ade wifey [:
Oh well , i'll upload more photos later .
Supposed to update blog yesterday night , but i dozed off ]:
So anyway , We were out yesterday .
Lunch-ed at White sands .
Head-ed to Bugis .
Shopp-ed for awhile .
Hmm , th both of us were sorta EMO yersterday thou .
But , we were alright in a short while .
Places we been with "them" , memories .
Reminsicing th past with them .
What we did , Where we went ...
Anyhow , we had Ritz apple strudel .
Were camwhoring .
Mostly , it's all in her camera .
- LAUGHS -
Aft bugis , went home for a short while .
And we went Pasir ris Park .
Okay , that's th part where we both were DAMN emo .
It reminds us of , Ade's Last year 18th birthday .
When she has her HE , i got my HE too .
Unforgettable day , her memorable 18 .
Girls tends to be more sentimental compared to GUY .
Well , hope we'd get better [:

Sunday, April 5, 2009

What a day ...
So anyway , was chatting with Charlyn jie at my aunt's house .
OH MY GEEZ .
Vampires do exist !
Of course , there are good and bad ones .
Heh , i was quite excited when she told me that .
Actually , it's up to you to believe it or not .
I do fantasize A LIL bout them [:
Well , like DUH !
Vampires who are like : Charming , Vegetarian , Harmless & etcs .
But sometimes , it is best to be ignorant .
It is best to be , realistic .
Somehow , to face this stereotyping world , it is stressful at times .
Fantasizing bout some UNREALISTIC fairytales , might be better ^^

How i wish , i can be two persons , in two different worlds .

*****

I can't seemed to get you outta my head .
You're whinning && whinning in my mind ...
Flashbacks of memories .
I miss-ed them so .
Things changed that landed us in this state .
Unclear images , turned out blank .
If only , we cherished those times together .
We would be happier .
Probably lasted even longer .
Boy , do you know how much i miss you so ?
You don't .
I hope that you're doing fine .
Leading a better life out there ..
At least , better off alone .
Good bye .

PS : PETER = ADELYN

Saturday, April 4, 2009

Happy Birthday , Rh .

Be happy :D

I'm not easy to please

So, you don't come and go

JACQUELINEJACQUELINEJACQUELINE You found me
Jacqueline Attached to my Sillyboy, His full-time Wifey (: I won't give up on us. Even if the skies get rough, I'm giving you all my love, I don't wanna be someone who walks away so easily, I'm here to stay and make the difference that I can make. —Live Like Love Archives April 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 June 2010 July 2010 August 2010 September 2010 October 2010 November 2010 December 2010 January 2011 February 2011 March 2011 April 2011 May 2011 June 2011 July 2011 October 2011 November 2011 December 2011 January 2012 April 2012 May 2012 June 2012 July 2012 October 2012 Songs To be updated	Thursday, April 30, 2009 Had a long day today . 10am - 4pm , i was working . Slacking , doing nothing . After work , head-ed off to th washroom and changed . Waited for Ck , like an hour plus . He accompanied me to chat all th while . Till he reach-ed . We then went to catch th 5.35pm show , Friday th 13th . Lawls~ Erm , normal movie , not as gore as My bloody valentine . It jus that , th sound effect is , too sudden . LOL . And yes , thats for all thrillers . After th movie , waited for Jasmine . Th 3 of us then went BBQ CHICKEN for dinner . Dam full , tormenting . Walked home aft that . AND FOR TML ~! 10am-4pm . Will be meeting Jasmine after that . We will be going over to Clemen's Bbq . Well , another long day ahead . Looking forward [: Im still awake . Reading thru th past friendster comments you wrote for me . Every words , seems to be from th bottom of your heart . You said you didnt regret waiting for me . You said that everything lasted forever . You said that your love is still th same . You said that life sucks without me . And , you said that you love me , alot . Nothing is true . You made me have a fear towards liking another guy . You made me hate to fall in love . You made me thinks that guys sweet talkings are bullshyts . You made me thinks that guys feeling fade faster than girl . You made me thinks that guys treat girls for granted . You left a scar , in my heart . Cos , i dont know how long will it takes , for my scar to recover . Thanks , for such a gift . Let me tell you something in return . I loved you , for who you used to be . I hate you , for what you take me as . Monday, April 27, 2009 Jian told me that you're already attached . Surprised . Don't wish to comment much also . Do not have th right to . My bad , to let you go . May you be happy with th girl you love . Me , lost faith in relationship . Moreover , falling in love ? Guys way of loving , its all bullshyts . Whatever . Quarrelled with my parents . Not trivial stuffs . Some confidential matter . Stuffs that agitate me , alot . I want my parents , to care more . Not feigning ignorance . Wanting me to be independent . I have an urge to just , JUST jump off th effing building . Maybe , i'm better off dead . I hate myself , more than i hate them . I hate myself , for being useless , for being indecisive , for being timid . Sunday, April 26, 2009 Basically , there's nothing much to blog about . Single ladies (: What kinda life will you expect from a single lady ? -laughs- Well , another fact . I'm welling to stay single , till i meet my Mr Right :D Be it 1 year , 2 years or maybe 3 years . I don't mind . As long as , he's my one . Well , gotta go to bed now . Working tml . Nights out ~ Oyasumi Nasai (: Tuesday, April 21, 2009 Thats th Pooh , always been with me . When im feeling sad . Felt lonely today . I don't know , just lonely . Thinking back in Primary && Secondary days . I'm always keeping a diary . Updating on everyday events . Even , my crush . Secretly liking him , not wanting him to know . Peep at him during assembly . Hope to get a chance to see him during recess and etc . So naive yet silly . Now , grown up . I can't get over him , yet . 捨不得,我為什麼說再見能不能收回我說的每一句話我為什麼不忘記你的溫柔總是來了又去我的孤單你的電話　忍住不打我不想變成習慣等你回來 Monday, April 20, 2009 Okay . Today , went back to school with Ck . DAMN ~! He is late , pretty late ? supposed to meet up at 3.30 . He reached at almost 4 . Lawls~ Headed to school and took our business computing's book . Anyway , we went to hongkong cafe . And had our lunch . While waiting , we were chatting . Heard rumors , from Ck bout my cousin . Well , Unpleasant ones . I wouldn't want that RUMOR to be true . Prolly, if it is , i'll respect him no more . If its not , That girl is so gonna die . I make sure peepos screw her up -.- Truth can be brutal . Seriously , i hate cheena bitches . They suck . Most of th time . Train-ed back to pasir ris . Walked home with him . Insan-ed . Talking craps , laughing like an ediot . Well , tml is another working day ahead . Screw-ed up work . Saturday, April 18, 2009 Today~! Went out with Jasmine after her work . Waited for her , like 40mins ~! Geez , was kinda pissed off luh . Because of th humid weather . Met her at ard 3 plus , and headed to Cityhall . Train-ed to Tampines . And bought a $35.90 top . Didnt buy much also . Jasmine in th other hand , bought slippers and a red wallet . We then headed over to White sands . Took neoprints . But , FCUKED UP LOR . Th machine got some technical problems , then we can't refund . Was kinda like, wtf . A bit no mood to take another shots . In th end , went to ehub , and had DINNERR ~! Damn full , almost vomitted ]: Okay , so eeew right ? Anyhow , walk-ed home . Chit chatted at th playground , GRUMBLED AGAIN ~! Cos , them again =/ Well well , I WANNA GET OVER HIM SOOOON . Please god ]: Friday, April 17, 2009 Morning people ! It's brunch time ~ Right , my morning SICKNESS :x Man , i sounded like a pregnant woman :x Ok , this sounded so wrong ! Sigh , read thru some blogs . Girls , are so fortunate , when they just begin with their sweeeet sweeet loveeee . Nothing goes wrong , everything seems so right . Radiant smile , everyday . That is what i used to have , i used to be . Time flies ~ Growing up ... getting older ... Lost faith in relationship , lost self esteem , lack of enthusiasm . Life . Anw , gotta work later . Workaholic . Wednesday, April 15, 2009 Okay people . I'm so sick . Heavy flu , Coughing and slight fever . And then Benji was like : Gt drink 8 cups of water not ? LAWLS ~! So anyway , Went out with Adelyn today . She accompanied me to my school , to book my exams . And then , we headed to Plaza Sing . Laugh-ed all th way . Didn't camwhore that much also . So , aft ps , we went Cathay . Well , gathers of memories =/ And town-ed aft that . People , i'm feeling so sick now . Off ~ Monday, April 13, 2009 He sent me two friendster messages . My heart sinked , when he says that he miss me . Is it true ? Or is it just a prank ? I don't know . I cried , terribly . Another message was , he asked if i've change my hp number . Boy , It hurts alot to see that message . Cos , i miss you so ... Thank you , for remembering me ; And thank you , for missing me . Take care . Sunday, April 12, 2009 After much considerations , i decided to blog . Okay , that was lame -.- Today , it kinda suck ? Anyway , was out with mum . Cos daddy is out with his clients . So , my mum and i , were doing some grocery shopping at hougang mall . After that , we went to th shop&save . My mum was choosing some frozen chickens for dinner . There are like, 2 pathways . And there's this particular fat indian girl with her friends . They were WAITING or probably , delibrately WAITING for my mum to finish choosing . Cos , they wanna cross . To me , they have PEA SIZED BRAINS ! Okay , then this fat girl was like saying " WAH LAO ! She choosing GOLDS sia etc " And then , she laughed , with her friend , with a ultraaa fugly tattoo . She is referring to my mum . Of course, i wasn't PLEASED to hear that . I was staring at her , and her friends . Once more , she repeated . And that is where i get pissed . i hissed " What's your fcuking problem here ? " She replied " Im nt referring to your mum what " I say " Oh , so , there's only me , my mum and ur friends . Are you implying tht u're referring to your friend of smth ? " There she goes , disgracing our CHEENA vulgarities . She shouted " Ccb , you got a problem here ? " I replied " Like duh ? are u asking me a stupid qns ? And pls , YOU ARE A INDIAN , dont disgrace chinese's vulgarities , cos it dont sounded nice for you to say . " Cos th way she is saying , its like " CHOW CHEE BUH " Those indian's slang . She went on howling like a mad woman . My mum asked me to ignore her . Then she went on saying " You scared ah ? " I replied " There is no way to be afraid of , cos , you're just an typical black indian , with 3 lumps of fats , mind your way, cos you may crash on someone with ur size . " I added : Fcuk off , retarded fat woman . Her friends , and BOYFRIENDS dont even dare to reply anything . She is a one of a kind fat arse lah . Well , if i'm gonna see her in PASIR RIS . I PROMISE ! That im so gonna rip off her fat arse . She insulted my mum , somehow . FAT INDIAN GIRL . She probably thinks that she got ang kong friend , people scared . Stupid thinking . Im so gonna squeeze out her fats , if i were to see her again . Maybe , she will thank me for tht , cos , she's going slim . What a biatch ~ Tuesday, April 7, 2009 Those are pictures taken yesterday , shots by Ade wifey [: Oh well , i'll upload more photos later . Supposed to update blog yesterday night , but i dozed off ]: So anyway , We were out yesterday . Lunch-ed at White sands . Head-ed to Bugis . Shopp-ed for awhile . Hmm , th both of us were sorta EMO yersterday thou . But , we were alright in a short while . Places we been with "them" , memories . Reminsicing th past with them . What we did , Where we went ... Anyhow , we had Ritz apple strudel . Were camwhoring . Mostly , it's all in her camera . - LAUGHS - Aft bugis , went home for a short while . And we went Pasir ris Park . Okay , that's th part where we both were DAMN emo . It reminds us of , Ade's Last year 18th birthday . When she has her HE , i got my HE too . Unforgettable day , her memorable 18 . Girls tends to be more sentimental compared to GUY . Well , hope we'd get better [: Sunday, April 5, 2009 What a day ... So anyway , was chatting with Charlyn jie at my aunt's house . OH MY GEEZ . Vampires do exist ! Of course , there are good and bad ones . Heh , i was quite excited when she told me that . Actually , it's up to you to believe it or not . I do fantasize A LIL bout them [: Well , like DUH ! Vampires who are like : Charming , Vegetarian , Harmless & etcs . But sometimes , it is best to be ignorant . It is best to be , realistic . Somehow , to face this stereotyping world , it is stressful at times . Fantasizing bout some UNREALISTIC fairytales , might be better ^^ How i wish , i can be two persons , in two different worlds . *** I can't seemed to get you outta my head . You're whinning && whinning in my mind ... Flashbacks of memories . I miss-ed them so . Things changed that landed us in this state . Unclear images , turned out blank . If only , we cherished those times together . We would be happier . Probably lasted even longer . Boy , do you know how much i miss you so ? You don't . I hope that you're doing fine . Leading a better life out there .. At least , better off alone . Good bye . PS : PETER = ADELYN Saturday, April 4, 2009 Happy Birthday , Rh . Be happy :D**
I'm not easy to please So, you don't come and go