JACQUELINEJACQUELINEJACQUELINE You found me
Jacqueline Attached to my Sillyboy, His full-time Wifey (: I won't give up on us. Even if the skies get rough, I'm giving you all my love, I don't wanna be someone who walks away so easily, I'm here to stay and make the difference that I can make. —Live Like Love Archives April 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 June 2010 July 2010 August 2010 September 2010 October 2010 November 2010 December 2010 January 2011 February 2011 March 2011 April 2011 May 2011 June 2011 July 2011 October 2011 November 2011 December 2011 January 2012 April 2012 May 2012 June 2012 July 2012 October 2012 Songs To be updated	Saturday, January 31, 2009 i never belongs to this family . they've never regard me as their daughter . i felt like a outsider , an intruder . my dad , as always .. striding his pride . i hate his way of indecisive . i hate his way of male chauvinism . i hate him , for he thinks that what he is doing is good for me . he is never decisive . trust him to be under a woman's thumb . perhaps , i'm too blunt . too childish . lost for words . im depending on myself , standing on my own . for a 18 years old girl , shouldn't be parents supporting their child ? instead of not trusting them ? fcuk th shiets . i really can't surmount these obtacles . give me a break . if it's like this , i'd rather not to be part of this family . it may be harsh , but it is how i felt , from th bottom of my heart . Friday, January 30, 2009 its th 30th today . my No.400 entry . been reminiscing my past childhood days . days when my dad carried me on his back and walked to MacDonalds . holding my dad's hand ,happily carrying a HappyMeal box . For my past 18 years , everything started to change . Family , Friendships . Doing what i dislike . Pleasing others , making me more like a fool . Changed in attitude , perhaps even worsen it . i didnt know that , pleasing friends may be so difficult . the more you tried to mend back th friendship . nothing is going right anymore . whatever you do , people still thinks that you're just trying to fake it out . growing up , is nothing but more a nuisance . Family ... parents wants me to do what i dislike . controlling my future , my present . demanding me to be like a demure lady . demanding me to be their ideal daughter . but th fact is , i am not myself anymore . i can hardly recognise myself . been thru thick and thins ... comments , critics , misunderstandings , miscommunciations . life ? am i living for th sake of it ? it ain't living for myself . im practically wasting th whole loads of youth times . i dont know . th current me : fake . hypocrite . useless . annoyed easily . no longer as cheerful . low self esteem . Friends , i'm sorry for everything . Family , i'm sorry for not being your ideal daughter . People , i'm beginning to get tired of these shiets . leave me alone ... Friday, January 23, 2009 Somehow , it changed . Wednesday, January 21, 2009 practically stayed at home to do some cleaning up . washed th curtains . changed bed sheets . vacuuming and mopping . i do looks like some housekeeper or something . anyway , didnt really wasted my day ? watched twilight again ! im still into it -.- and read new moon novel . it was great ^^ perhaps i should go for more courses ? thinking back , i do have dreams too . tml is just another day for me . duh , what a boring life . BUT ! will be out drinking on sat night . can't wait >< Tuesday, January 20, 2009 misunderstandings i supposed ? anyway , i flunged my paper again ! T_T i hate this part man ... why like that .... i think i flung my facilities accomodation paper . well , destined not be a housekeeper =x good thing lai de . * LAUGHS * aiyah .. sinces i've done all my exams . it's time to ENJOY ~! loves friends <3 alright ... what comes around goes around ? or what goes around comes around ? oh, whatever . Jacqueline , stay calm . it is none of your business . don't care what others say , you are just being yourself . fcuk all th bullshiets . _l_ condemned me all you want . Monday, January 19, 2009 well , it's just a random picture took ysd . before work =x cos i think my blog looks dead w/o any pics . shall update about what happened yesterday ... here it goes , it was just a typical sunday . met ghey ghey and went to work at 6.00 and poor me , always being th host . and i hate it . ghey ghey was a food runner * laughs * alright , we shall followed th working part . after work , both of us went for supper . mac supper i meant . i had mac spicy cos i was craving for some spicy food =x and ghey ghey had mac chicken . he do looks like one thou =x th funniest part was , he got th bread stucked on his braces . and he's like making th " tsk tsk " sound . damn irritating , am laughing as well . aft supper , he walked me home . and today ! darn me . im supposed to wake up at 7.00 but i woke up at 7.42 instead ! my exam starts at 9 ! prolly , i rushed out =/ i was late for my exam luh . late for like 20 mins -.- but well , i did managed to complete my paper , i guess . to be in short , i think i flung ? i dont know . those questions are alien to me . especially section B . and half way thru th paper , i suffered from stomach ache . all thanks to th mac spicy ysd night . i practically rise my hand for permission to th washroom . poor me , i forgot to bring my tissue along . went to th head office and asked " any toilet papers ? " everyone in th office is like staring at me . damn embarrassing . well , completed my paper at 11am . what a bad bad day i had . shiet it ... what am i doing i wonder ? complexed . why am i still clinging on th past times ? i wanted a new year new start . Jacqueline , don't be stupid . Saturday, January 17, 2009 been doubting ... guys ? is sweetness never consistent ? or is it that, for girls .. it has never been enough ? liked what rong said , girls are like trophies .. guys are like runners . finished th race get th trophies , put in th cabinet . well , not all guys i supposed ? ahhh . anyhow , went compasspoint with mummy today . she bought darn loads of stuffs man . im like her carrier . wanted to look for yuhong , but that lil boy is sick and he headed home . didnt have th chance to look for him . aft shopping , daddy fetched us home ... then met jasmine . went to playground . listen to her sorrows ... cheer up girl . im not good at consoling people but ... i can assure you that , u can rely on me [= its my promise . Friday, January 16, 2009 today .. i woke up damn late luh ! anyway , went to school . everything been smooth for me , i guess . well , and suddenly .. me and ck is like , we're so so so anti MURDERERS . cos he told me that he recently watched a REAL LIFE murder case from a webby. definitely not from youtube . its bout 3 guys , sm-ing a ang moh guy . er , practically torturing him till he die . th way they torture him .. is like so damn mother effing heartless . they used a hammer , and hammered his head for several times . and he bleeds profusely . after that , they use a SCREW DRIVER , and screwed in his stomach . nt only that , they BUA it around lor . after that , they used th screw driver and poke right in his stomach . and then they use screw driver and poke it in his eyes ! he's like screaming till sore . can you imagine it ? those heartless , beastly , brainless bunch of fcuking beasts ? anyway , they were caught . but sadly , th country do not allow death sentence . they killed 21 people , and th police questioned they , why did they do that for ? they simply answered " for fun " i mean , FCUK THOSE BEASTS MAN ! horrible , killing for fun ?! if i'm th police , i make sure i shot a bullet in their eyes . and see how they feel . damn idiot . beasts . i wonder , why got such people ? if edward cullen is around , make sure he suck all their bloods out . let them die in a miserable way . they deserves it . BEASTS ~! Wednesday, January 14, 2009 i bought TWILIGHT NEW MOON ! was reading th book just now . kinda into luh . it's nice btw . can't wait to watch this new movie ! well , it said to be out this nov ? which is like , still long luh . i dont know it by th time , am i still into edward cullen ? hehe anyway, he is hot [= Tuesday, January 13, 2009 reached home ! its like only 12.00 pm lor . well , reason is because , there isn't much people in school . and im like , so fugging bored so i decided to head home while chatting with jasmine . reached white sands , and went to popular right away . FINALLY I MANAGED TO ORDER TWILIGHT NEW MOOOON ~! heh heh heh , im receiving it tml ^^ so happy luh . and yah , just being random here .... " DANIEL IS SCREWED BY KEITH ! " -.- * laughs * Monday, January 12, 2009 i just ate my chocolate waffle . it tastes good ! two thumbs up [= umm , anyway people , i just came home luh . don't worry , i showered le ! ^^ yeaah , i went to work today . people are so not used to my new hair color =/ its purple and red luh . but i like it [= hmm, today while hosting , seen so many so many couples . some plump plump girls with some macho / cool / handsome or average guys . well , im not insulting them or what luh , just that , i find them kinda fortunate to have such guys ? cos its like , they seemed very happy together . cos they were in th opp stall eating mee sua . then th plump girl having ulcer i think . then th handsome guy use th scissors to cut her mee into smaller pieces . so that she can consume th mee in a more convenient way . then th way th guy see th girl smiling happily to him . cos at least she's pampered by him mah . anw , his expression was like so contented to see her smile lor . sigh , im like so envy . i wanted a guy to pamper me so much . hope they last longer luh [= well well , this week is my exam week . hopefully i manage to get distinction lor . else i'll get a earful scolding from my cousin and parents . seems like this beginning of th year is boring . hello ? i want something thrilling and fascinating this year ahead ! Sunday, January 11, 2009 i can't sleep . i just can't ... chatted with bao , and realised that , finally he GROWS UP LE ! after his ex broke off with him . he no longer behaves like a flirt , no longer flings with other girls . im glad that this incident brainwashed you ! you're right , sometimes we shouldn't force things to come your way . Jacqueline ! wake up will you ? you dumbass . and yes , i'm that stupid girl who is dumb to bring it all up . How to get your boyfriend to spend more time with you and his friends when he just doesn't seem bothered anymore ? Saturday, January 10, 2009 how i wish things would be back then . Jacqueline , you're such a stupid fool . i no longer feel happy , no longer feel loved . my happiness , parted . Friday, January 9, 2009 oh my gawt ! EDWARD CULLENS IS SO HOT ! i just watched twilight online . thanks to kun uh ! he asked me to go :http://www.pipi.cn and then download th player in order to watch th movie . well, th movie quality wasn't tht good luh . cos its like , pple took in th video cam and video de . so far , only got this quality i guess ? unless th dvd is out . but overall , i finished th whole entire movie . i guess there is a part 2 for it ? DAM NICE ! he is so so so so hot . so protective towards bella . what a romance , a vampire fall for a human ? SWEET DE LOR . i still can picture edward cullens's face lor . that cool cold icy looking handsome blood-sucking vampire . yet GORGEOUS face . right , enough about him , else tian will get pissed off again =x umm , im doing a facial mask right now . * laughs * it's a GIRLY day . didnt attend marketing module today . cos , i overslept =x was too worn out yesterday . practically worked like a dog man . there's like only 4 staffs on floor to do all th jobs and preparations . thou i'm th host . but i went helping out around too . th rest of th staffs were exhausted * laughs * ke yi ma ? he ni dui tiao , xi wang huan chen ni ai wo ai dao yao feng diao . zhi dao mah ? ni dui wo duo mo zhong yao . wo bu yao bie ren wen rou de huai bao . wo yao ni de ai jiu hao . Wednesday, January 7, 2009 it's 11.11 pm now . well , i wanted to have an early rest cos i just came back from work . been tossing around , closed my eyes trying to get myself back in bed . but i failed . so , i get up and on my lappy to blog [= i've been working for these few days . cos' i need im facing some cashflow problems ! ain't exactly , i just wanna get myself a new phone . i realised , i still prefer drawing and designing rather than studying this hotel management diploma . prolly , opening a chocolate cum cake shop with jasmine . we'll named it after " BELGIUM EXPRESS " my plan is , i'll finish my hotel course , earn more income , am stable for my expenses . then we shall carry on with our dream plan ! earn more profits , then i'll head for my designer or being-a-artist dream ^^ hmm , or perhaps before th age of early thirties ? or maybe 35 [= i'm not th hotel staff -to- be type thou =/ even if i were to work there , it's only for th sake of MONEY ! $_$ * laughs * my wishful thinking ? i shall achieve my dream ! well well , tml is school day again ! with mr joseph . our marketing module . seriously , i detest it . it's always about business techniques , improving th economies and etc . anyway , i'm so gonna end this post now . good night peeps . LIFE ! is all about you [= Monday, January 5, 2009 i just can't pull myself away . i just can't stop ... you'r driving me like crazee . i hate it to be in this way . it sucks . Sunday, January 4, 2009 hellos , im back . its already th 4th day of 2009 . will it be a good one ? i never thought that 2008 would pass so fast . so far , life aint going smooth for me . well , hope that it will get better . been away for 4 days . and i saw , EYE CANDY <3 well , just saw him thou . toodles people .
I'm not easy to please So, you don't come and go