Lost and insecure, you found me

JACQUELINEJACQUELINEJACQUELINE

You found me

Jacqueline

Attached to my Sillyboy,
His full-time Wifey (:

I won't give up on us. Even if the skies get rough, I'm giving you all my love, I don't wanna be someone who walks away so easily, I'm here to stay and make the difference that I can make.
—Live Like Love

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Tuesday, April 29, 2008

boyfie, every gift from you, really makes me smile [:
dont doubt the love i have for you.
cos i understand, how i feel.
every lil sweet talkings i say to you, its all from the bottom of my heart.
i dont have a glib tongue, but for you , i will make your day [:
you makes me melt whenever you say u love me.
kiat boyfie, i love you too ^^

Saturday, April 26, 2008

omfg.
i dreamt of HIM when i was sleeping in my dad's car.
anyway, stupid dream.
went over to aunt's place to play mahjong.
not me, but boyfie && mummy.
heh heh.
i realised something, DONT EVER CONTROL A GUY [:
siao liao lah.
my air con is spoilt.
gotta move over to my mum's room for a night.
argh.

just reached home @_@
a bit shaggyshaggy shag shag.
went out with boyfie, dion kor,choon kor && charlyn jie.
went to sing song.
from 9 - 2am.
drank a few sips of alcohol.
oh wells, i cant hold my liquor well = =
aftermath was kinda HIGH.
then emo. lameshieeeet.
then boyfie && choon kor went to play billard.
ahh. as usual.
then, aft sing song.
went to changi beach.
walk walk.
wanted to have supper. but wasnt hungry.
so, saw mani mani ah guas.
fugging chio -.-
dua nehnehs.
then proceeded home.
dion kor drove me home.
cos they claims that i shagggggged.
yea, im still a lil now.
oh well well.
wanna slp le. gotta give boyfie morning call tmr.
nights guys.
have a sheepy sleep ^^
@_@

Thursday, April 24, 2008

cold. there's no warmth.
tears are drying up.
i know i shouldnt have dwelled on it so much.
but i just couldnt help it.
cheer me up pls ?
i so so so misses you so dam freaking much.
yea, i over reacted a bit.
dont worry, i'll learn to get used of it.
i will keep myself occupied from today onwards.
shant write much.
just blog out , to make me feel better.

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

felt so fatigued.
felt so sad.
felt so miserable.
happy for him, sad for myself.
boyfie found a TNT job.
starting from tmr.
alternate weekends off days.
happy for him, cause he finally found a job.
sad for me, cause, we'll be havig lesser time for each other.
will things still remains the same ?
yea. he left so early today.
cant bear. but i just couldnt make myself say " stay with me a while more "
he's going to safra for snooker && meet shenrui.
didnt talk to him much just now.
he slept, i played maple.
he woke up. we chat other stuffs instead.
then he left.
i just wanna chat with him a while more.
a few minutes will do.
dam luh.
felt so fugging sad.
emo.

Monday, April 21, 2008

just feel like blogging another post randomly.
way too bored i guess -.-
stayed at home the whole day.
did nothing but , mapling.
i'd rather go to school.
at least i manage to chat with my friends.
better than staying up at home doing nothing.
just hanged up the phone with kiat boyfie.
hm, seems like nothing to talk.
something like, lack of topic to talk.
so, we faced the silence.
what am i reaching for ?
no goals.
nothing is there to keep me moving on.
i need consolation.
but who is there for me ?
practically, no one is there.
im too selfish to ask for more.
always, monday blues.
sigh.
everyone goes thru tough times.
we cant avoid it, yet, we cant ignore it either.
only thing is to face the reality, learn how to accept .
smile, and learn to get through.
and surely, im tangled up in pure confusion with the mixture of emotions.
that's life.

i dont know much, but i know, iloveyou.

sorry qiqi.
instead of lending a listening ear for me.
i've made u upset.
knew that u would read my blog.
so, i would like to blog it out.
im sorry ]:

Sunday, April 20, 2008

cant sleep leh.
thou i was sleepy jus now.
today, went over to aunt's house to play mahjong again.
boyfie asked his mom to send him over.
so, they startled playing at ard 1 plus.
aft a while, accompanied ah boy kor && charlyn jie to hougang green for breakfast.
whereas me && boyfie went to see the " B BOX " thingy.
cos ah boy kor claimed that it's cheap luh.
so, boyfie went to play billard for a short while.
as for me, i was sitting there, staring into space && watched him play.
aft that, headed home. && they startled playing again.
i locked myself up at ah choon's kor room and watched dvds.
ok luh.
watched for a few hours lor.
today also nothing much.
just that this few days they kept mahjong-ing lor.
lol

Friday, April 18, 2008

"Rely on your more outgoing tendencies to stir up some fun today! Break some rules."
er.
I DID IT !
i didnt attend my school today =x
lols.
woke up at 7.05am
accompanied boyfie to DHL for an interview at ubi.
trained to bedok && boarded bus 25.
OH DAMN ! his interview was so damm fugging long.
from 9am till 11.30am i guess -.=
aft his interview, board bus 55 to go junction8.
meanwhile thru the journey, we past by amk blk 409.
for ur info, its whr me && my family always go for breakast on sundays.
boyfie went once with us.
so he was like asking " eh, this place very familiar hor ? isit whr u ate ur mee hoon kuey ?"
i said " ya lah. this the place what. gong~ "
then he replied " okok, alight here ! go eat mee hoon kuey ! "
then he faster press the door bell.
i was like " -.- !!! thght u wanna go junction8! "
LOLs.
so we alighted && ate the mee hoon kuey ( his treat [: )
whereas he ate the, kuey chap.
he has been craving for it.
aft that, woah. both of us were damm fugging full && sleepy && tired.
bused to junction 8.
then bused home -.=
slept in the bus.
HAHAHA.
slept one stop aft my stop. in other words, i over slept.
boyfie is even worse.
he slept all the way to changi village.
LOL lor.
so, i went hime, from 2.30 i slept till 4.00pm.
woah.
damm tired can.
enjoyed <33

Thursday, April 17, 2008

just finished bathing.
drank a glass of SOUR freshly punch of orange juice.
felt better [:
school was boring.
hm, boyfie is working soon ?
he's going for an interview at eunos tmr.
well, all the best yea [:
dont know why, feel sad somehow -.-
always wanting him to look for a job.
but now, he found a job, and i felt really really sad.
as in, i doubt we will have time for each other?
in other words, he will be working, i will be studying.
thou he work for only office hours.
budden, still, lesser time luh.
still hope that things will still turn out the same.
hopefully [:
TODAY, aft school, went to look for boyfie.
then ard 5 plus accompanied him for a haircut.
this hair stylist isnt as good compared to the previous one.
heard that he have moved to punggol.
aww.
aft his haircut, cabbed home to have our satay beehoon dinner.
not bad luh, jus that its not spicy lor.
as for now, boyfie is sleeping soundly in my room.
shall hope that tmr is a good day ahead for him [:

Wednesday, April 16, 2008

reached home.
its blogging time [:
had a fun day in school today.
funny classmates -.=
made me laughed like a lunatic.
one of my classmate wanted a tissue paper from me.
he said " you got tisu ? "
then i asked " what is tisu ? "
he said " you dont know uh ? omg, mian zi la ( sounded like give me face ) "
halfway thru the conversation, wu ye came.
then he told wu ye i dont know what is tisu.
i dont know why on earth wu ye know what is " tisu "
then he told me he wanted a tissue paper in cheena.
then i was like " ORH ! TISSUE HAR "
that particular classmate was like " kao, my english cmi "
HAHAHA !
anw, i'll be having a one week hols nxt week !
cos i ending this module on this fri.
on 28th is new module le . sian -.-
they asked me out on tues to catch a movie with them [:
first time wor.
wahaha.
funny funny day.
anyone wanna a tisu ?
hahaha

Monday, April 14, 2008

my 230 posts [:
suddenly, i just feel like blogging.
the sky is pretty dark now.
guess its gonna rain soon ?
aww. i hate raining =/
went to school for only 1 && a half hour only.
due to my bad stomach cramp, i headed home while they are having break.
reached home, ate my brunch && do my revision.
felt moody today.
and yes, PMS [:
i just dont feel like schooling.
perhaps, im still in my holiday mood.
but, I DONT HAVE ANY HOLIDAYS AT ALL !
oh well, monday blues ]:
so effing bored. there's nothing i can do.
watch movie ? surf webby, what else?
awww.
i need someone to talk to badly.
text me, or give me call NOW !
chat with me, && i'll be glad [:

Sunday, April 13, 2008

just reached home from my aunt's house.
kiat boyfie tagged along.
woke up at 9am today.
headed to amk for breakfast then to my aunt's house.
went to Uncle Poh's house cos it was just opposite.
helped him with the thumbdrive thingy && went to sleep.
while both uncle poh && boyfie were watching the "taxi" movie.
aft that, went to aunt house.
boyfie played mahjong with my mum && my godbrothers.
while i , damm effing bored. watched tv duh.
OHH !
i asked ah choon to teach me how to play a guitar.
oh well, kinda noob luh.

caught while i was playing guitar.
wahaha.
not zhi lian ok !
oh well, shall learn to play more from him.
interesting lehs !
hms, boyfie is sleeping now -.-
that arseholee. he's always sleeping as usual.
snoring ! at my hse.
thats all for today then [:

Thursday, April 10, 2008

cant seem to fall asleep.
so i decided to blog again.
should i change my blog to private?
cos i wanna write down how i really feel deep down.
had a fcuking day today.
ps: girls need to be pampered.
somehow feels that, things aint the same anymore.
they will never remain like how it used to be.
how sweet if its really could.
i really misses the 1st mth when we'r together.
hours&& hours of chatting thru the phone.
no lack of topics to talk about.
from 11-4am.
or maybe more than that.
perhaps it will no longer happens again.
meeting almost everyday.
u're always making my day with every morning smses i receive.
now, i feel so left out.
so isolated.
we dont have much topic to chat on phone, && i'm feeling really terrible.
why cant things just remain the same?

我在你心里什么位子?
i want those days back.

damm.
reached home long ago.
but DRENCHED !
arsehole.
walked home aft school today.
oh well. having personal test tmr.
WTF !!!
cos i missed the previous test they had on weds aft school.
-.-
from chapter 1-9 !
ma de. can die lor.
sighhhh.
studying in a few more mins time.
just randomly post lor.
didnt know what to write either.
everyday also the same.
nothing GREAT happen on me.
suddenly, i craves for fondue ^^
wifey !! when are we having it again ??
awww.

Wednesday, April 9, 2008

wahahaha,
saw the fondue ?
TEMPTING RIGHT !
oh wells, aft school, went lunch-ing with ade wifey.
went to hongkong cafe to have my lunch.
$10.95 -.-

FOR MYSELF ONLY
then headed to coffee club to have FONDUE.
the fondue is kinda cheap thou, $12.80 only.
then had the chocolate strawberry ice blended.
both costs us, ard $22.80 i think.
i spent quite alot for lunch today. zaii.
madness with ade wifey.
with the candid shots && stuffs.
&& me posing all those stupid && kuku actions.
I SHALL NOT UPLOAD !
COS ITS DAMM FUGGING FUGLY.
wahahahaa.
maybe some other days luhs.
it have been so long ever since we both went madness again.
&& i saw his ex working in coffee club.
i was like : zzz
coincidence uh?
hahaha.
ahhh, boyfie is coming over later.
YAYNESS !
i misses him man.
someone, buy me a FONDUE pls [:

Tuesday, April 8, 2008

ysd was me && kiat boyfie 3rd month [:
hope everything is still doing fine luhs.
oh wells, he came to look for me at ard 2 plus midnight.
gan dong luh =x
came in && watched the vampire show.
damm funny la the show.
&& he went home at ard 3 plus going to 4am.
TODAY~
i cant wake up =/
too tired luhs.
but woke up eventually.
headed to school.
had lessons, slept in class =x
aft school, went to kiat boyfie's house.
watched the vampire show again.
funny yet disgusting -.-
then headed home ard 3.45pm.
now, rain,rain,rain && RAIN !
damm effing irritating luh.
i hate rainy days.
damm fugging fcuked up.
so no life lor, everyday also go school.
then proceed home, revision again.
then now i wanna play maple.
ma de. i cannot load the patch.
gotta re install again.
&& its gonna take me 2 hrs 8 mins.
kao eh.
see lah. now u know why i hate rainy days.
cos i cannot even have my stuffs proceed smoothly.
arseh0lee.
what a day man.

Monday, April 7, 2008

i want my surprise.

Sunday, April 6, 2008

just reached home.
on my way back, in my dad's car.
i've been thinking alot.
reminiscing the past 2 years.
my days in secondary school, used to be carefree.
enjoying my everyday school life with my bunch of friends.
the laughters && all.
copying homeworks from each other && stuffs.
went slacking after school.
reminds me of boyfie -.-
i used to call him a psycho back then.
HE IS ONE ANYWAY !
i realised, friendship, they are actually very fragile.
there is an amount of effort u has to fork in.
in order to maintain the friendship.
sometimes, i really do misses my friends alot.
i didnt cherish them well.
the past , they are now memories.
may the memories stay in my heart always.
cos they are meant to be remembered [:
anw, tmr is our 3rd mth.
and yes, there are ups && downs.
&& i've learnt alot.
boyfie, i dont ask for eternity.
all i ask for is, just to stay by ur side always.
wahahaha <3

Saturday, April 5, 2008

sigh.
went out with ade wifey today.
went to suntec's k box as usual.
student price lor.
had nuggets, chips && free flow drinks.
wasnt that high compared to last time.
but was alright luhs.
sang alot of songs.
imitate fahrenheit da dong's actions. damm funny.
sang till 6.15.
went walking ard a lil.
till 7.00 plus i think.
the train was damm packed. so we waited.
meanwhile, ken called wifey up.
so, wifey decided to meet him for a while.
cos it had been so long ever since they last met.
a year i guess.
she psycho-ed me to accompany her.
i agreed then.
well, was in a rush luhs.
cos i promised my mum to buy her dinner [KFC]
sighhhh.
reached tampines.
rushed to 7-11 to buy maple card.
rushed to KFC to buy her dinner using the KFC's coupon.
damm fcuked up.
till ard 8.20
damm. waited for bus for like till 8.50?
called my mum, for like several times.
yet no one answer.
bomb her hp, also no one ans.
fcuking worried luhs.
rushed back home, she's jus watching the tv.
YELLED at me, questioning me why am i so late.
&& she dont wanna have her dinner then.
yea, i know its my fault luh.
i feel very bad anyway.
frankly speaking, i'm a mother fcuking bastard who always bring anger to my parents.
i've never make them happy before.
a bad daughter indeed.
i didnt have my dinner either.
guess i've lost my appetite too.
sigh.
well, stay away from me.
i'm nothing but a bastard.

Friday, April 4, 2008

thanks for the concern guys [:
i'm much more better.
cos we patched up eventually [:
no worries.
went to his house ysd, cos his mum cooked lunch.
roasted duck&& all. was effing full luh.
after lunch, we watched mobtv.
headed home aft that.
today, woke up early in the morning.
went to mandai to burn some offerings to my ancestors.
then went home. slept till now.
didnt attend class. cos i'm fugging tired.
reached home && slept till now.
ENERGETIC !!!
alrighto, going off to do some revision.
&& my mum's nagging again.
&&& yes, HER again.
arseholeeee.

Wednesday, April 2, 2008

guess its really over.
you will never know how much i hurt.
you will never know how much i misses you.
you will never know how much i needed you.
you will never know how much i wanna be with you.
you will never know how much i loves you.

i've no more courage to express out how i feel.
no more idea what am i thinking.
i told my mum ample times, i want freedom.
&& i realised, she made me lost everything.
why must i always behaves like a mummy's girl?
obey && obey &&& obey.
till i lost my way of thinking.
devastated.
how can i ever let you know how i feel?

no more courage to love anyone anymore.
i'll learn to love myself, before i love anyone else.

Tuesday, April 1, 2008

i saw him.
HIM. HIM !!!!!!!!!
omffffg.

I'm not easy to please

So, you don't come and go

JACQUELINEJACQUELINEJACQUELINE You found me
Jacqueline Attached to my Sillyboy, His full-time Wifey (: I won't give up on us. Even if the skies get rough, I'm giving you all my love, I don't wanna be someone who walks away so easily, I'm here to stay and make the difference that I can make. —Live Like Love Archives April 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 June 2010 July 2010 August 2010 September 2010 October 2010 November 2010 December 2010 January 2011 February 2011 March 2011 April 2011 May 2011 June 2011 July 2011 October 2011 November 2011 December 2011 January 2012 April 2012 May 2012 June 2012 July 2012 October 2012 Songs To be updated	Tuesday, April 29, 2008 boyfie, every gift from you, really makes me smile [: dont doubt the love i have for you. cos i understand, how i feel. every lil sweet talkings i say to you, its all from the bottom of my heart. i dont have a glib tongue, but for you , i will make your day [: you makes me melt whenever you say u love me. kiat boyfie, i love you too ^^ Saturday, April 26, 2008 omfg. i dreamt of HIM when i was sleeping in my dad's car. anyway, stupid dream. went over to aunt's place to play mahjong. not me, but boyfie && mummy. heh heh. i realised something, DONT EVER CONTROL A GUY [: siao liao lah. my air con is spoilt. gotta move over to my mum's room for a night. argh. just reached home @_@ a bit shaggyshaggy shag shag. went out with boyfie, dion kor,choon kor && charlyn jie. went to sing song. from 9 - 2am. drank a few sips of alcohol. oh wells, i cant hold my liquor well = = aftermath was kinda HIGH. then emo. lameshieeeet. then boyfie && choon kor went to play billard. ahh. as usual. then, aft sing song. went to changi beach. walk walk. wanted to have supper. but wasnt hungry. so, saw mani mani ah guas. fugging chio -.- dua nehnehs. then proceeded home. dion kor drove me home. cos they claims that i shagggggged. yea, im still a lil now. oh well well. wanna slp le. gotta give boyfie morning call tmr. nights guys. have a sheepy sleep ^^ @_@ Thursday, April 24, 2008 cold. there's no warmth. tears are drying up. i know i shouldnt have dwelled on it so much. but i just couldnt help it. cheer me up pls ? i so so so misses you so dam freaking much. yea, i over reacted a bit. dont worry, i'll learn to get used of it. i will keep myself occupied from today onwards. shant write much. just blog out , to make me feel better. Wednesday, April 23, 2008 felt so fatigued. felt so sad. felt so miserable. happy for him, sad for myself. boyfie found a TNT job. starting from tmr. alternate weekends off days. happy for him, cause he finally found a job. sad for me, cause, we'll be havig lesser time for each other. will things still remains the same ? yea. he left so early today. cant bear. but i just couldnt make myself say " stay with me a while more " he's going to safra for snooker && meet shenrui. didnt talk to him much just now. he slept, i played maple. he woke up. we chat other stuffs instead. then he left. i just wanna chat with him a while more. a few minutes will do. dam luh. felt so fugging sad. emo. Monday, April 21, 2008 just feel like blogging another post randomly. way too bored i guess -.- stayed at home the whole day. did nothing but , mapling. i'd rather go to school. at least i manage to chat with my friends. better than staying up at home doing nothing. just hanged up the phone with kiat boyfie. hm, seems like nothing to talk. something like, lack of topic to talk. so, we faced the silence. what am i reaching for ? no goals. nothing is there to keep me moving on. i need consolation. but who is there for me ? practically, no one is there. im too selfish to ask for more. always, monday blues. sigh. everyone goes thru tough times. we cant avoid it, yet, we cant ignore it either. only thing is to face the reality, learn how to accept . smile, and learn to get through. and surely, im tangled up in pure confusion with the mixture of emotions. that's life. i dont know much, but i know, iloveyou. sorry qiqi. instead of lending a listening ear for me. i've made u upset. knew that u would read my blog. so, i would like to blog it out. im sorry ]: Sunday, April 20, 2008 cant sleep leh. thou i was sleepy jus now. today, went over to aunt's house to play mahjong again. boyfie asked his mom to send him over. so, they startled playing at ard 1 plus. aft a while, accompanied ah boy kor && charlyn jie to hougang green for breakfast. whereas me && boyfie went to see the " B BOX " thingy. cos ah boy kor claimed that it's cheap luh. so, boyfie went to play billard for a short while. as for me, i was sitting there, staring into space && watched him play. aft that, headed home. && they startled playing again. i locked myself up at ah choon's kor room and watched dvds. ok luh. watched for a few hours lor. today also nothing much. just that this few days they kept mahjong-ing lor. lol Friday, April 18, 2008 "Rely on your more outgoing tendencies to stir up some fun today! Break some rules." er. I DID IT ! i didnt attend my school today =x lols. woke up at 7.05am accompanied boyfie to DHL for an interview at ubi. trained to bedok && boarded bus 25. OH DAMN ! his interview was so damm fugging long. from 9am till 11.30am i guess -.= aft his interview, board bus 55 to go junction8. meanwhile thru the journey, we past by amk blk 409. for ur info, its whr me && my family always go for breakast on sundays. boyfie went once with us. so he was like asking " eh, this place very familiar hor ? isit whr u ate ur mee hoon kuey ?" i said " ya lah. this the place what. gong~ " then he replied " okok, alight here ! go eat mee hoon kuey ! " then he faster press the door bell. i was like " -.- !!! thght u wanna go junction8! " LOLs. so we alighted && ate the mee hoon kuey ( his treat [: ) whereas he ate the, kuey chap. he has been craving for it. aft that, woah. both of us were damm fugging full && sleepy && tired. bused to junction 8. then bused home -.= slept in the bus. HAHAHA. slept one stop aft my stop. in other words, i over slept. boyfie is even worse. he slept all the way to changi village. LOL lor. so, i went hime, from 2.30 i slept till 4.00pm. woah. damm tired can. enjoyed <33 Thursday, April 17, 2008 just finished bathing. drank a glass of SOUR freshly punch of orange juice. felt better [: school was boring. hm, boyfie is working soon ? he's going for an interview at eunos tmr. well, all the best yea [: dont know why, feel sad somehow -.- always wanting him to look for a job. but now, he found a job, and i felt really really sad. as in, i doubt we will have time for each other? in other words, he will be working, i will be studying. thou he work for only office hours. budden, still, lesser time luh. still hope that things will still turn out the same. hopefully [: TODAY, aft school, went to look for boyfie. then ard 5 plus accompanied him for a haircut. this hair stylist isnt as good compared to the previous one. heard that he have moved to punggol. aww. aft his haircut, cabbed home to have our satay beehoon dinner. not bad luh, jus that its not spicy lor. as for now, boyfie is sleeping soundly in my room. shall hope that tmr is a good day ahead for him [: Wednesday, April 16, 2008 reached home. its blogging time [: had a fun day in school today. funny classmates -.= made me laughed like a lunatic. one of my classmate wanted a tissue paper from me. he said " you got tisu ? " then i asked " what is tisu ? " he said " you dont know uh ? omg, mian zi la ( sounded like give me face ) " halfway thru the conversation, wu ye came. then he told wu ye i dont know what is tisu. i dont know why on earth wu ye know what is " tisu " then he told me he wanted a tissue paper in cheena. then i was like " ORH ! TISSUE HAR " that particular classmate was like " kao, my english cmi " HAHAHA ! anw, i'll be having a one week hols nxt week ! cos i ending this module on this fri. on 28th is new module le . sian -.- they asked me out on tues to catch a movie with them [: first time wor. wahaha. funny funny day. anyone wanna a tisu ? hahaha Monday, April 14, 2008 my 230 posts [: suddenly, i just feel like blogging. the sky is pretty dark now. guess its gonna rain soon ? aww. i hate raining =/ went to school for only 1 && a half hour only. due to my bad stomach cramp, i headed home while they are having break. reached home, ate my brunch && do my revision. felt moody today. and yes, PMS [: i just dont feel like schooling. perhaps, im still in my holiday mood. but, I DONT HAVE ANY HOLIDAYS AT ALL ! oh well, monday blues ]: so effing bored. there's nothing i can do. watch movie ? surf webby, what else? awww. i need someone to talk to badly. text me, or give me call NOW ! chat with me, && i'll be glad [: Sunday, April 13, 2008 just reached home from my aunt's house. kiat boyfie tagged along. woke up at 9am today. headed to amk for breakfast then to my aunt's house. went to Uncle Poh's house cos it was just opposite. helped him with the thumbdrive thingy && went to sleep. while both uncle poh && boyfie were watching the "taxi" movie. aft that, went to aunt house. boyfie played mahjong with my mum && my godbrothers. while i , damm effing bored. watched tv duh. OHH ! i asked ah choon to teach me how to play a guitar. oh well, kinda noob luh. caught while i was playing guitar. wahaha. not zhi lian ok ! oh well, shall learn to play more from him. interesting lehs ! hms, boyfie is sleeping now -.- that arseholee. he's always sleeping as usual. snoring ! at my hse. thats all for today then [: Thursday, April 10, 2008 cant seem to fall asleep. so i decided to blog again. should i change my blog to private? cos i wanna write down how i really feel deep down. had a fcuking day today. ps: girls need to be pampered. somehow feels that, things aint the same anymore. they will never remain like how it used to be. how sweet if its really could. i really misses the 1st mth when we'r together. hours&& hours of chatting thru the phone. no lack of topics to talk about. from 11-4am. or maybe more than that. perhaps it will no longer happens again. meeting almost everyday. u're always making my day with every morning smses i receive. now, i feel so left out. so isolated. we dont have much topic to chat on phone, && i'm feeling really terrible. why cant things just remain the same? 我在你心里什么位子? i want those days back. damm. reached home long ago. but DRENCHED ! arsehole. walked home aft school today. oh well. having personal test tmr. WTF !!! cos i missed the previous test they had on weds aft school. -.- from chapter 1-9 ! ma de. can die lor. sighhhh. studying in a few more mins time. just randomly post lor. didnt know what to write either. everyday also the same. nothing GREAT happen on me. suddenly, i craves for fondue ^^ wifey !! when are we having it again ?? awww. Wednesday, April 9, 2008 wahahaha, saw the fondue ? TEMPTING RIGHT ! oh wells, aft school, went lunch-ing with ade wifey. went to hongkong cafe to have my lunch. $10.95 -.- FOR MYSELF ONLY then headed to coffee club to have FONDUE. the fondue is kinda cheap thou, $12.80 only. then had the chocolate strawberry ice blended. both costs us, ard $22.80 i think. i spent quite alot for lunch today. zaii. madness with ade wifey. with the candid shots && stuffs. && me posing all those stupid && kuku actions. I SHALL NOT UPLOAD ! COS ITS DAMM FUGGING FUGLY. wahahahaa. maybe some other days luhs. it have been so long ever since we both went madness again. && i saw his ex working in coffee club. i was like : zzz coincidence uh? hahaha. ahhh, boyfie is coming over later. YAYNESS ! i misses him man. someone, buy me a FONDUE pls [: Tuesday, April 8, 2008 ysd was me && kiat boyfie 3rd month [: hope everything is still doing fine luhs. oh wells, he came to look for me at ard 2 plus midnight. gan dong luh =x came in && watched the vampire show. damm funny la the show. && he went home at ard 3 plus going to 4am. TODAY~ i cant wake up =/ too tired luhs. but woke up eventually. headed to school. had lessons, slept in class =x aft school, went to kiat boyfie's house. watched the vampire show again. funny yet disgusting -.- then headed home ard 3.45pm. now, rain,rain,rain && RAIN ! damm effing irritating luh. i hate rainy days. damm fugging fcuked up. so no life lor, everyday also go school. then proceed home, revision again. then now i wanna play maple. ma de. i cannot load the patch. gotta re install again. && its gonna take me 2 hrs 8 mins. kao eh. see lah. now u know why i hate rainy days. cos i cannot even have my stuffs proceed smoothly. arseh0lee. what a day man. Monday, April 7, 2008 i want my surprise. Sunday, April 6, 2008 just reached home. on my way back, in my dad's car. i've been thinking alot. reminiscing the past 2 years. my days in secondary school, used to be carefree. enjoying my everyday school life with my bunch of friends. the laughters && all. copying homeworks from each other && stuffs. went slacking after school. reminds me of boyfie -.- i used to call him a psycho back then. HE IS ONE ANYWAY ! i realised, friendship, they are actually very fragile. there is an amount of effort u has to fork in. in order to maintain the friendship. sometimes, i really do misses my friends alot. i didnt cherish them well. the past , they are now memories. may the memories stay in my heart always. cos they are meant to be remembered [: anw, tmr is our 3rd mth. and yes, there are ups && downs. && i've learnt alot. boyfie, i dont ask for eternity. all i ask for is, just to stay by ur side always. wahahaha <3 Saturday, April 5, 2008 sigh. went out with ade wifey today. went to suntec's k box as usual. student price lor. had nuggets, chips && free flow drinks. wasnt that high compared to last time. but was alright luhs. sang alot of songs. imitate fahrenheit da dong's actions. damm funny. sang till 6.15. went walking ard a lil. till 7.00 plus i think. the train was damm packed. so we waited. meanwhile, ken called wifey up. so, wifey decided to meet him for a while. cos it had been so long ever since they last met. a year i guess. she psycho-ed me to accompany her. i agreed then. well, was in a rush luhs. cos i promised my mum to buy her dinner [KFC] sighhhh. reached tampines. rushed to 7-11 to buy maple card. rushed to KFC to buy her dinner using the KFC's coupon. damm fcuked up. till ard 8.20 damm. waited for bus for like till 8.50? called my mum, for like several times. yet no one answer. bomb her hp, also no one ans. fcuking worried luhs. rushed back home, she's jus watching the tv. YELLED at me, questioning me why am i so late. && she dont wanna have her dinner then. yea, i know its my fault luh. i feel very bad anyway. frankly speaking, i'm a mother fcuking bastard who always bring anger to my parents. i've never make them happy before. a bad daughter indeed. i didnt have my dinner either. guess i've lost my appetite too. sigh. well, stay away from me. i'm nothing but a bastard. Friday, April 4, 2008 thanks for the concern guys [: i'm much more better. cos we patched up eventually [: no worries. went to his house ysd, cos his mum cooked lunch. roasted duck&& all. was effing full luh. after lunch, we watched mobtv. headed home aft that. today, woke up early in the morning. went to mandai to burn some offerings to my ancestors. then went home. slept till now. didnt attend class. cos i'm fugging tired. reached home && slept till now. ENERGETIC !!! alrighto, going off to do some revision. && my mum's nagging again. &&& yes, HER again. arseholeeee. Wednesday, April 2, 2008 guess its really over. you will never know how much i hurt. you will never know how much i misses you. you will never know how much i needed you. you will never know how much i wanna be with you. you will never know how much i loves you. i've no more courage to express out how i feel. no more idea what am i thinking. i told my mum ample times, i want freedom. && i realised, she made me lost everything. why must i always behaves like a mummy's girl? obey && obey &&& obey. till i lost my way of thinking. devastated. how can i ever let you know how i feel? no more courage to love anyone anymore. i'll learn to love myself, before i love anyone else. Tuesday, April 1, 2008 i saw him. HIM. HIM !!!!!!!!! omffffg.
I'm not easy to please So, you don't come and go